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September 4th, 2005

4 th September 2005


I have been very erratic with writing since the last few months. Illness had disabled me along with emotional ups-and-downs. For a while, it felt like I was not being spontaneous in writing. Writing was becoming an effort rather than the flow that it had always been. Breaking up with my boyfriend was another source of fear – all along, he played a major role in my writing, indirectly! Being in love with him was a source of honesty and simplicity which was what my writing was about. And even as I write the words “my writing”, I am completely aware that writing is a medium of expression. It is a gift of Providence to me. It is that gift which allows me to reach within while reaching out!


Sometimes tragedies and traumas happen so that we can learn. In my life, I have felt that tragedies and traumas occur because I get very comfortable with the routine and the familiar. It is when things get thrown up and about, shattered and spread, that it is time to come out of my comfort zone and recreate myself. Comfort is a situation of security and we dread coming out of our comfort zones – whether it be in our jobs, marriage, relationships or family! I have found that in my life, Providence has always thrown me out of my comfort zone, just when it was getting too comfortable! Once, when I was in Seoul , I happened to read the story of a Korean actress. One of the things which she had said was “When you hit the bottom and you are completely down, there is no way to go expect up!” And I have believed in these words ever since. Trauma and tragedy are experiences of strength of character. These are the episodes of life when we can each go beyond ourselves and become something more than what we were.


Today, after a span of nearly four months, a feeling of calm has descended on me. I am able to write because there is peace within. For a while now, I have been writing about city spaces, everyday life and people. This shall continue. But today, I want to express my gratitude to everyone – people I write about, people who read this blog, and the countless wonders and magic of universe which make up this writing. I am increasingly coming to believe that I shall always be taken care of and I shall never be hungry – because there is a value I bring to this world and love is a powerful force which brings people together.


I hope to continue writing with love, honesty and spiritedly!


Thank You!


  1. September 5th, 2005 at 03:03 | #1

    🙂 godspeed.

  2. September 5th, 2005 at 13:02 | #2

    So happy for you. Optimism unlimited. Hugs 🙂

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  4. September 6th, 2005 at 02:19 | #4

    Hi there, I like your writing spirit. I came here via Locana via Indsight.org/blog/.
    Writing from Tucson, Arizona, USA.